Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I wish to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo the very first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the idea that I will be this for the incorrect reason; as a way to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to fairly share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider something that I had stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the absolute most prominent fear I had in visiting the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere with its residents’satisfaction, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
There are other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.