Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM Monastery
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.
Part of me wanted to keep longer, but beneath that desire was the thought that I could be this for the incorrect reason; as an easy way in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to generally share wasn’t yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside acim teacher. Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I really could not consider anything that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I’d in coming to the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored a lot of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other issues that happened that felt important, but I can’t consider them right now.